YOYOYO, carin is back! finally. sec 2's so stress. workload so much. i feel like giving up on my studies but i know i can't. Guess what? i got back my results today and i feel that i am so USELESS and HOPELESS. Yeah, i cried. To some of you, my results are good but to me, its like BULLSHIT. Maybe i got high expectation of myself? I wanted to get all A2 but in the end....? Hais... Post my results later. Hais. i told myself that mid-year must get all 70 and above if not i am really gonna give up on my studies. You see, no point continue studying when i get such HOPELESS results right? hais... sian... Next week is holidays le, I am so not going to spend my time playing and enjoying. I will use that time so concentrate on my studies and catch up whatever i am weak at.

A few days ago, something happened... hais... Not gonna talk about it. Some of you should know what happened. YOU totally destroyed my mood for that day till now. Forget it. I know i am USELESS and HOPELESS, can't even cope well with my studies yet i still want to bother this and that. WHATEVER. i am not gonna care about this thing anymore. You are no way to interfer into my life so stop whatever nonsense. I can only say, I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN.

Yesterday after swimming, went to eat with Sherlyn at playground. haha. and we ate melted chocolate. I eat until the whole mouth siol. so paiseh... haha... Holidays are meant for people to enjoy or should i say those in primary school and younger? you want to slack during holidays when you're in sec school? no way man, no even a single minute can be wasted. HAHA. i know i am being too exaggerate but its true right? :/ I won't change my mindset anymore.

I got A2 for science Miss Wong still not happy. Want me to get A1... whatever... i don't give a damn. i get 70 then happy liao... Nvm. Skip the studying and results part, later i cry again... I had been pondering for long... I kept asking myself "which is the real side of her? the good one or the bad one?" I got no mood to post any longer... Ohya, tomorrow i got NDP selection, needa go woodgrove sec school from 9am to 12.30pm. Can't sms, gonna miss you guys. haha... Of course i wanna get selected but i can't cope well with studies so get selected also no use, i can't study cause i will miss out every saturday. So tomorrow selection i well just anyhow do the drills, so i won't get selected. yipee(:
bye.

English - 61 (B4)
Chinese - 70 (A2)
Maths - 63 (B4)
Science - 74 (A2)
Geog - 55 (C6)
Hist - 56 (C5)
D nT - 78 (A1)
Art - 73 (A2)
I know my results suck alot.