back. this few days a lot of things happening... friends break apart and friends quarrel... everything of last year are back again... sian... i seriously don't know what to do... I AM LIKE SO DAMN FUCKING STRESS EVERY DAY!!!!! homeworks, projects, powerpoints.... all sorts of nonsense come together... haiz... can anyone tell me what to do? i don't understand some topics, just feel that i am really stupid. i shouldn't even be in this world in the first place... haiz... i see people like relax relax, not stress but why i am? some people are like showing attitude... this post isn't going to be long cause i still got maths, history and chinese homework... ahhhh... went to read their blogs and plurks then found out that she is asking for forgiveness... O.o... Lol, why am i talking about this anw...? haha...

yesterday talk on msn with jane until i cried sia... i don't even know why... just got a kind of feeling on giving up on my studies... i don't know how to get promoted to sec 3 when i don't even understand what the teachers are teaching... i really afraid that i may drop to NA... people can understand but i just can't absorb into my brains... during chingay, i feel like jumping into the sea and end my life but i don't have the courage to do that... i wanna find someone to talk to, but who can i talk to? friends? i don't trust some of them and some of them don't keep secrets... i kept everything in my heart, don't dare to say out as i scared it will offend people.... if these continues, i am going go crazy sooner or later...

the starting of this year, everyone changed... all gossips start again... can't i just concentrate on my studies... haiz... i thought sec 2 will be totally different form sec 1 but i am wrong, very wrong... i thought people will be more mature but in the end? NO. zzz... i am sure that i never do anything wrong to her, but why did she keep staring at me??? i really wanna know why... i talk to my friends, she also want stare, like wth?... stare somemore, i dig out her eyes ar... haha!(: